A note....

It's time to say goodbye, but I think goodbyes are sad and I'd much rather say hello. Hello to a new adventure.
---Ernie Harwell

Yes Raj...while you say hello to a new world we here say goodbye n wave our hands to the flying airplane that is going to carry you quite a bit far away from us. Distance does not matter in this world of smart gadgets but yes I will miss you...

Well I am selfish and I love you for a reason..your the one who will take care of my prized possession all through her life.

Happy times does not stay long but good times do keep on coming. I hope to party with you once again, get drunk & play teen-patti to make you lose all your money. I hope that there will once again be a time when u will cook your amazing daal for us n we will come back home slogged n tired to eat n sleep. I know your thinking that hope that time does not come back. All the very best for your new venture..a venture that is new, fresh n I hope will be filled with surprises. And while you get lost amidst the "small eyed" world you will keep on missing us. I know you would not need to miss Amy much as will send her there soon...I cannot jhelofy her for long...but yes till the time we meet again I know you will exactly stay the same...

Has a real good time since you moved here...good that you did not stay for long..i guess good times are better when they stay for short period of time...:)

N while I gradually get into a new phase of life I will definitely need you for your Chill advice...cant do without them...please be there :)

STOP!!!

Stop!!! dats what life often tells me..Stop n think...think of what?? think of the next door kid who never studies n plays the whole day and how i wish mom had let me play the entire day when i was young n never study.think about the days when i spent the entire days think bogus n doing nothing..n today life says Stop n think about days when u think nothing at all...!!!life says Stop n think about the emotions that is gushing in your heart when ur best friend is leaving the city!! Stop him?call him?cry to him?or just stay silent n see what comes next.life says Stop n think of a habit u developed recently n finding it hard to chuck of. a habit which you are not proud of but still finding it difficult to get out of it.or just still idle n think of what to think!!!

People & Faces...

There is some faint connection between Monday evenings & blogging. I have often found myself scribbling words in notepad/word docs on Monday evenings when I have nothing to do n I am tired of taking breaks. While I was away for a while from my desk & taking a lonely break from the chaos of clients few faces flashed in my mind. Few of them being the people I was/ am associated because of my profession while some being those who are important in life. I was just trying to play a rapid fire game with my mind by asking it the names of people who are/was associated with me due to some special reasons. As for say I asked my mind who do u associate to when i say "Sad"..my mind promptly flashed the face of my colleague from my previous office(name not to be disclosed of various reasons)...n I and my mind suddenly liked this game. Well while I am writing this I also ask myself is this a game between my mind & heart?Maybe...dat is not important as long as my fingers get the flow for finishing this blog...

There are people in my life who has been dere for the past 16 years..n den after 16 years of so called friendship she calls me names when things don't turn out her way.Situations make me believe dat after such a long period of knowing each other there was no platform to sort things out. And there are people with whom i was not in touch for years but now when I am happy or sad i would want to call them. But its all a game of time...but only one relation where time could not play its wicked game is my friend/now roomie..she has been n always be someone whom i dont term as "best friend" but she is someone for whom i would want to give my self-less efforts if i fell she needs it. Time has not always been wicked. Time has also returned back my childhood friend from school to with whom i feel connected and today it does not take an effort to call her..it just happens. Someone whom I called 'association' became my best chatting buddy when we shared a common interest in photography..Strange is the game of time and changing mind..!! They together make a deadly combination.

When i say books the one name that i remember is Avik who has always been my best reading buddy..but it also reminds me of the guy who deliver me books from Flipkart..we both somehow remember each others face as when he comes to deliver books to others he gives me a warm smile. Everyone has somehow gave me something worth remembering.The guy with whom i shared an auto on an very wet monsoon evening on my way home from office who taught me how to convince an autowalla with sweet words. Or the chat friend whom i have never seen but has given me innumerable reasons to think about different things to write. Or my students mother who has through her own experiences taught me that You should give an ending to everything.

People whom we conventionally name "Friends" are they really friends?? And people whom we name "associations" are they really mere associations..?? They often make a remarkable change in our life unknowingly..as for someone whom i would only call an 'association' and is no more in touch with taught me how to cook my favorite dish...!!She is dere somewhere in my life even though i never mention or remember her. Strange but true..

confession

I don't remember when I sat beside him, asked him his name. He didn't tell me his name, but sang to me: "I won't be a name in your life, I would be your life."....

kemon achish??

kamon achis amay chere??
kamon achis anek dure?
cholche kamon jibon chaka??
moner kon ta lagche faka??
accha akhono bayna koris??
ager maton du chokh voris??
gaite paris sei chena gaan??
sei chena sur sei oviman??
moner kotha r diary lekha..!!
dukkho hole bristi dekha..
janis ajo amar ghore,
mushal dhare bristi pore..
sedin jakhon chole geli,
poth alada bujhie dili..
sedin theke megh koreche,
upche duchokh jol jhoreche..
amar ghore keu asena..
lekha r pase keu bose na..
tobuo ami valoi achi..
swapno nie jibon bachi..
char se katah, bol tor katha..
kamon achis, khabor ki tor..??

goodbye...

Lets laugh together till the sweet tears oozes out,
Lets cry together till we realize its nothing about,
Lets fight together till we hold our points strong and stout,
Lets laugh together till tears oozes out...

Let us write a poem to read in the solitude,
Let us sing a song to hum unknowingly,
Let us dance to our favorite tune,
Let us make love like we have never done before.

Let us do all things that defines us,
Lets us relive our love,
Lets us accept we love each other,
And let us promise each,
Once we part,
Never to look back further!!

analysis and inference...!!!

Updating formulae is not what I wanted to do all day long but that is what I am doing right now.. How bored and disgusted a little soul can be that she is blogging at 4:32pm from office that also on a Monday afternoon…well that’s how office and life is right now…suddenly it feels that nothing is in place!!! I feel it more because life was more or less perfect for few days…getting out of perfect things to a sudden trackless life is difficult!!! I don’t know what do people of my age group feels when they move out of a 5 years long relationship to a world where nothing is known but to me it’s rather shocking!!! I am shocked of the fact that I was so god damn stupid to believe that my beliefs would still work in this world…!!!
After years of struggle I actually came to believe that life is really bad and it cannot be good for me…dreams are restricted zone where I should not step into…love is a barred reality and I should stay away from it!!!
After a lot of analysis I boiled down to few very important points:
1) Do not call the person when you want to talk to him the most!!
2) If possible delete the number from your mobile(well that’s tough indeed)
3) Do not go to lunch with him.. if possible quit having lunch but do not go to lunch with him!!!
4) If you peep out of your desk and look at him to see that he is terribly hungry then do not go down to the cafeteria to get a pack of biscuits and a coffee. Do not get allured to pamper him!!!
5) If he is frustrated with work and he does not know what to do not rush ahead to pacify him!!!
6) If you go out shopping with someone and you like a dress then buy it immediately…!!! Do not wait for him to come up and confirm that the dress is good!!
7) If you want a smoke break then do not ping him, just catch hold of any one whom you see the first and run for break. If possible catch hold of that person whom u hate the most…that would also help you in quitting as well (remember you are again quitting for your beloved).
8) If you cook something great then make sure you don’t pack it for him. And if you do by mistake then make sure that you don’t get delighted when his eyes close out of pleasure of the taste of the food!!!
9) Don’t save money for gifting him the best gift in his Birthday!!!
And there are so many more things….
But as I was completing the 10th point I realized that these are things that makes me happy…shouldn’t I pursue my happiness…So at times analysis fails!!this time also analysis failed and I am happy to continue the way things are!!!